I am lacking focus. I might have ADD.
I might be lazy. I might just be out of it. I'm not sure what the
trouble is. Maybe I need new glasses. Maybe I need to stay off of
Facebook and Pinterest. OK, I really need to stay off of those
things. They are a colossal waste of time. Maybe I should exercise.
That could help with my focus.
The other day I was watching an Ellen
stand up where she says she thinks she has ADD. She is assured of
this because she doesn't even have the patience to take a test to see
if she has ADD. So much of what she talks about is like she is
inside my head. I once told my grandmother that I was having trouble
with forgetting things and that I could use some ginkgo. She ordered
me some and sent it home. The problem is that I needed something or
someone to remind me to take the ginkgo so I could remember all the
other stuff I was forgetting. I eventually took them all. I think
there was a 30 day supply, it may have taken me 6 months or 60 days.
Who remembers? Then, I was watching Ellen and she talked about
ginkgo too, so I felt happy because it's not just me. She said if
you can remember the ginkgo you probably don't need the ginkgo.
Which, duh?
I enjoy watching Ellen's stand up
comedy because she talks about so much that I wonder about myself.
Why do they package batteries like they do and only put light bulbs
in the flimsy cardboard? I have asked myself the same thing.
I wonder about other things too. Why
do people complain when we have 60 degree weather in January? Isn't
that the most fantastic thing ever? Does pork ever think that
chicken is the other white meat? If brussel sprouts were so good for
you, wouldn't they taste like chocolate or at least like carrots?
Why isn't a Reese Cup a health food if chocolate has milk which does
the body good and peanut butter has protein? Does Lady Gaga scare
everyone or is it just me? How do cows stay warm in the winter? I
had a leather coat once and it was not warm. How do the people from
Classmates.com find you and why don't they get if you wanted to keep
in touch you would have? How do people get to that place as an adult
where running is fun? Would my mother have kept drinking her coffee
black if she knew about chocolate creamer? She was the ultimate junk
food junky. I can see that taking her love of coffee and chocolate
to a whole new level. Do other people have to go into the garage,
sit in their car, plug into the iPod and sing at the top of their
lungs, to feel like a rock star?
If I had been a dog I would have been
Doug from the movie UP. Squirrel! If I had been able to learn
everything to the tune of a song I might have been a rocket
scientist... OK that's not true. I never wanted to be a rocket
scientist. In fact I have never known or known anyone who aspired to
be a rocket scientist. I might have become a doctor or nurse.
Actually probably not because I don't do well with vomit or anything
that involves a great deal of blood. I actually don't know what I
would have been. I cannot think of a single thing that seems so
interesting that I wouldn't get distracted at some point. My best
friend knew at age seven she would become a teacher. When I was six
I wanted to be a teacher by the time I was eight I wanted to be a
hair dresser. When I was ten I wanted to be a ballerina, by the time
I was seventeen I wanted to be a fashion designer. This may be why I
love reading so much. I can be anything in a book. Then pick up a
different book and be something else.
So back to the focus issue. The only
time I don't lose focus is when it's 10:30 at night and my husband is
flipping through the channels and he finds a movie and starts
watching it. At 11:00 he will go to bed. If the movie is over I
will too, if not I cannot go to bed until it is over. I can't seem
to walk away. I am not even sure that is true focus because truly my
focus should be on going to bed and not on a movie I've already seen
an may even own. Give me a television show and I can usually walk
away. I have laundry to do. I need to go get a mocha because I
haven't hit my quota for one day. I need to walk aimlessly through
the house so I can say I exercised today. I need to use the
restroom..............................................................................................
OK I'm back. What was I saying? Oh yes focus. Don't ask me to
read all the instructions to cook dinner because that won't happen.
I won't cover the dish when I'm supposed to and I will cover it when
I am not supposed to. I will leave something out. Don't ask me to
drive you anywhere that takes longer to get to than 20 minutes
because I will get bored and either start singing or ask you to drive
so I can read.
Oh and currently it has taken me three
days to get this post finished so any deadline you may have for me
better be a ruse. It might be best to tell me one day hoping that I
get it to you three days later. Because focus seems to be an issue
for me currently.