Well Look At That, I'm 10 ft Tall Afterall!

I remember being a kid in the third grade and standing in line for a drink at the water fountain. I remember standing there thinking that I was so short in comparison to the other kids. Well, I'm not much taller now, but I think as we get older and gain more confidence we can feel taller. I know for myself I have had days where I have felt 2 ft tall for having said something wrong or made some stupid mistake. (Never add cold water to a glass dish that has been baking at 400 for an hour) But I digress..There are days though you know? Those days where you wake up and you realize everything has lead you to this morning, and you have slept all night in a nice warm bed. The kids and the hubby kiss you goodbye as they leave for work and school and you look around and think...I have four people, Wow! I had nothing and now I have four people to love and who love me in return. And you know what? I'm happy to be here and today? Today I feel 10 ft tall!

If I Lived At Walmart

As I look around at my messy house, I often think that it would be easier to just move and start over. That is not an option as I cannot convince my family that moving to a more tropical climate would be in all of our best interests. A friend said that she thought it would be good to live at Walmart because they have anything you could want or need. That gave me a good idea. If I lived at Walmart I would have a team of people to help me find what I need. If the kids couldn't find their things I wouldn't be the only one responsible for helping them find their things. If I lived at Walmart I would have all the food I would need at me disposal at all times and sometimes even have people who have prepared food for sampling so we could have appetizers. If I lived at Walmart I would have a team of people to help me clean. If I lived at Walmart all the toys any of the kids would want would be readily available. If I lived at Walmart I wouldn't have to leave my residence to shop, get my hair done, go to the bank, get pictures taken, and in some Walmarts get an oil change. If I lived at Walmart I would always have someone to talk to as I would always have company. If I lived at Walmart we would have all the latest in technology at our disposal to test out. If I lived at walmart none of our socks would ever have holes in them and we would always have clean underwear. If I lived at Walmart all of my flowers would look great all the time as there would always be someone to water them. If I lived at Walmart we would have several toilets to use with the likelihood of waiting for one very slim and someone else would be in charge of cleaning them. If I lived at Walmart I'd have access to all the newest releases in movies, books and entertainment at all times.

So as you can see there would be a lot of perks to living at the Walmart. However, I did think of a few downfalls of living at the Walmart. If I lived at Walmart I wouldn't be able to shower or bathe I would have to wash in a sink in the bathroom. If I lived at Walmart we would never have privacy because we'd be open 24/7. If I lived in Walmart I'd never get any sleep because the lights never go out. If I lived at Walmart the parking would be terrible and I'd have to worry about carts and other cars at all times hurting my car. If I lived at Walmart all my pretty flowers would get sold and I wouldn't be able to enjoy them very long. If I lived at Walmart I'd have to sleep in a sleeping bag as they have no beds. If I lived at Walmart I'd have to have sex with my husband in a dressing room with a guard standing outside. If I lived at Walmart we'd all be obese from eating all the baked goods that are so readily available.

I'm sure there are many other ways living at Walmart would either be a good thing or a bad thing. But you get the idea.

Happy Thanksgiving Mom

Dear Mom,
It's Thanksgiving again today. There is so much to be thankful for God has blessed us beyond measure. You should see the kids they are getting so big. Those teenage years are HARD! Let me apologize right now for that. I know I was a moody smart mouth kid and I would like to thank you for not tolerating any of it. There are so many things to tell you. C is having a better year in school, you would have loved seeing her in the school play. She did such a good job she even shocked her teacher because she was loud enough to be heard. She is also writing for the school newspaper. She loves to write just like her mom. Mo is having a good year too. She's the big kid on campus being the big 6Th grader and all. She is going to be in a Christmas program playing the piano and acting. You always said that one of them would play the piano, because they had such long fingers when they were born. She's only taken lessons for a little over a year and she does so well. Her dancing dream shifted now she wants to be a big time volleyball player as she discovered she loves the game. P is a ladies magnet! He has many friends in school but the girls seem to adore him. I'm a little nervous about that one. He is so kind and loving. Of course he is playing sports. You know his dad wouldn't have it any other way. I know if you were here he would amaze you. It seems we were scared to have a boy for nothing.

I'm missing you so much! It gets easier but the piece of my heart you took with you seems to ache more on the holidays. It's another Thanksgiving and you aren't here for me to tell you thank you. Thank you for loving me, thank you for raising me, thank you for loving me enough to fight with me. As I get older I realize I was lucky to have a mother who cared enough to fight with me. I would rather have had that than indifference. I appreciate the fact that you were smart enough to stand up to me and tell me when I was wrong or making a mistake. Oh and thank you for not letting me date till I was sixteen. I won't be letting my girls date till they are 30 but if by chance the right boy comes to call I may allow it if they are old enough to protect themselves and drive themselves home.

We are redecorating your room looks completely different. I got the hard wood floors I used to dream about. I love going in there and sock skating. It looks more like just another room now. It's easy to not have those last days flood my memories when I go in there now. We may stay here forever now. It's hard for others to understand why it was important to make the change, but I'm sure you understand. I wouldn't change a thing. I was blessed to be able to be there for you. While the pain of losing you will never quite diminish completely, God has saved me from the pit and I find it gets more bearable with the passing of time.

Happy Thanksgiving Mom! I love you and miss you.
Until we meet again,
Heather